After I found out I was in a Reduction in Force or RIF (my second in 3 years) I was heartbroken and horribly depressed. I let fear rule my life over the next several months. I was living with the fear of what happens if I don't have a job when school starts...by Thanksgiving....by the end of the semester...by the start of the next semester. However in January it hit me, that I was still surviving, so why was I so worried. It is amazing the weight that is lifted off your shoulders when you finally learn to just let go. Now I won't lie to you, when bill paying time comes around, I still stress about money but I am no longer afraid of what is to come or that things may not work out like I expected them too.
I have always been a eternal optimist and I know that a better future is just around the corner. I also realized this past fall that I needed to stop putting things off. I was often saying "When I have a job, I will (fill in the blank)" but by September I wondered what was keeping me from getting things done. I started filling my days with projects. I started to utilize my local library and began to read books I never thought to read. I also started to watch British television (luckily someone at the local library is also a fan, so I had lots of choices). I even went out and got a couple more certifications, bringing the number to five.
I believe fate leads us to the places we need to be and to the things we need to be doing. I had forgotten about this blog after the RIF and was not sure I even wanted to look at it again. But thanks to my sudden interest in the Pioneer Woman blog, I started to think about this blog. I started it just over a year ago, and I feel ready to actually make something of it. The days really are getting brighter and my spirit is lighter. I look forward to the future whatever that may be, because I know that no matter what it is going to be great.
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